the big truth

I must have sucker stamped on my forehead or something.
How hard is it to tell the truth? I mean really??? If you tell someone you love them it should be because you love them. If you tell someone you want them in your life then you should have them in our life. If you say stuff to people then you should mean it....you shouldn't say it to just pass the time or to say the right thing at the right time.
No this is not how life is.
I sit here and ponder to myself...what could I have done differently...should i have said this or that? and really the answer would be I couldn't have done anything different and there was nothing else for me to say.
I will not dwell on this anymore. It's now in the past. I have all the answers I need because this time I am the one walking away. I have done all I can do...enough now enough.
If one day we should meet in a field then it was meant to be.

off to bed....

-Halley

all good things.....

Have I used that title before?? hmmm I am not sure.
So all good things must come to an end. Yes that is right. For the first time in these crazy 10 weeks I feel really good!!! My tummy is settled and I feel that things are settled. i don't blame anyone for anything.
So to Caleb I say, thanks for the good times...i sure had fun. you made me realize that my life should be more then just Annika and work. the things you showed me...really are one of a kind.
Now though it is time to move on and continue on the journey of life and though its not likely but perhaps our paths will cross again one day.

Cheers!!!

-Halley

deciding....

Well here I am again, at a cross roads.
10 weeks ago I was going along in life...lalalala then boom bam a guy enters it. I was not at all prepared or aware of what would happen.
Now after 10 insane weeks, the end is here...and where to go and what to say. Is there anything else to say? Should I say anything? Time and distance is the only way I think.
I have done some things that I am not proud of and I have been a bit crazy and again I am not proud of that either. There are no excuses and I have been so unhalleyish it's kind of maddening....but perhaps that is just life. I feel that halley coming back.
I could say that I am sorry, which I am for some things, but mostly I am sorry that I couldn't let go of the past to make way for the future....the future was just thrown on me...I was not ready for it.

So that is my blurb for the day...

Whatever comes will come.

-Halley

been busy

Well i have been busy with stuff. I have a post that needs to be written...just need to find the time.
Been thinking on some things...and now that I have the answers it's all good to go!!!
Have learned a lot about myself and really enjoy where I am right now!!

Will post later tonight.

Peace!

-Halley

Super Super Strong

Today I will be the strongest I have ever been...and it's because god is watching down on me right now!!!
Life is good :-)

-Halley

today

I will not fall apart.
For whatever reason this has happened and I will be stronger...falling apart is not an option!

-Halley

life's choices

last night my now friend made a life choice that has changed the direction of the people that surround him.
For me the choice was not mine at first but given time to think my choice was clear.
It's funny how life is in general because everyday choices really do change your life. This morning when i got up I was seeing someone who I still care a great deal about...now I am sitting here writing that we are not together.
Will the friend thing work? I sure hope so but friendship is a two way street.
It's true that he is not the only on who needs to focus on themselves...I to need to make sure I am going in the right direction.
Am I sad? yeah I am...but life shall and will go on. I think the point is that we together made the right decision and over time who knows what the future will bring.....

So this is me for now!

-halley